Overwhelmed

I have come to the conclusion that one day I will end up driving myself crazy. Noone else will. It'll be me! That last week or so things have been really hitting me. And I feel incredibly overwhelmed by it all. Most everything is in order as far as the wedding goes. I have so much honor and respect for women who plan and do their weddings all on their own. If I didn't have my wedding planner doing everything's she's doing, you would probably have had to commit me by now!!!

The house is getting along fair. It's not anywhere near where I want it to be yet, but it's getting there. I absolutely love our house. It's so nice to just be able to come home to something that we actually own, something that we can truly call our own! I've had to put house decorating and the rest of the unpacking aside to doing wedding planning instead. It's kind of like how I had to put wedding planning aside when we were in the house buying and moving process. *Sigh* I love our house. I'm just not so sure we have should have done this all at once. It may just get the best of me.

I've actually been doing pretty well with everything up until the last week or so. Things have finally begun to weigh me down some. On one hand I am so excited for our wedding. I'm so excited to walk down the aisle. I'm so excited to marry my best friend. But on the other hand, I just can't wait for this all to be over. I'm ready for life to be back to normal. I'm ready to be able to come home and sit, and not have to worry about what our guest list looks like and menu choices and what day I have to pay the photographer by. I'm ready to be able to just rest.



I can't seem to remember anything these days. I mean it's quite pitiful actually. I have to write down every little thing I need to do as I think of it or else I forget. Then I have to go back through my list at the end of the day just to make sure I did everything. I mean I even have to write down questions I need to ask Tyler, or what I need to have with me before I leave the house. My memory has never been amazing, but it's never been this bad before. I'm not sleeping at night. Too many thoughts are racing through my head. I'm so afraid I'm going to forget something important.

In 23 short days, I will be a married woman!!!! I'll then have time to decorate our house, and spend lots of quality time with my hubby! These thoughts are what are going to keep me going. They are going to keep me from saying F*** it! I really am excited, just stressed at the same time. And actually just venting now has helped a lot. lol, that was my purpose in this blog. I needed to vent :)



Haha, and this just reminded me of how I often feel about my work computer. I saw it and it made me laugh :)